Hey Mum I Wrote You Some Soft Songs.

ok so i havent posted since november of last year.

thats just pathetic.

merry christmas/happy new years.

anyway.

i wasthinking f what to say in this post since like 9. and i havent actuallys started it til now. (12:44) its cause im awesome right?

yea,no.

seriously though. my topic for this whole post thing was gonna be about the whole "relationship thing" and how people want the ideal relationship.

i had all these ideas and they just kinda vanished as soon as i startedtyping.

i wish that didnt happen so often.

we'll give this a shot though it maybe a shot in the dark. (im bound to hit on something i meant to say)

the ideal relationship-what people want.

people seem to go for the "perfect" relationship the kind that doesnt cause any kind of pain the kind that doesnt make you worry the kind that DOESNT exist.

relationships have flaw. imperfections.arguments (internal and external). sad times. theres no such thing as the ideal relationship. theyre all different. you may think you have an ideal one and even then you dont.

(and theres the rambling portion of our show)

i ran out of stuff.

again

but thats beside the point.

ummm theres other stuff i wanna say.

but i dont think i will. i have to many thoughts its rediculous, sometimes i wish i could just draw some stuff im thinking, but then never show it to anyone cuz i dont want them to know.

(did thats sounds as weird to you as it did to me?)

i should really stop drinking coffee so late at night. <- random thought.

its been a whole ten minutes woot.

i wanna take some pictures..with someone. im tired of pictures by myself. i need a better camera.

i should be sleeping. this isnt fun. i get very easily distracted. this needs to stop.

a certain guy i know shouldbe awake and talk to me. i is lonely. i forgot how to type for a second. thats not good. my foot itches.. i spelled itches wrong and had to fix it.

does anyone even read this? i dont think so. oh well.

theres no one to talk to at one AM this makes me sad.

i like how my fingernails glow when light hits them in the dark. ( that didnt make any sense )

i wish i could type without looking at the keyboard. thatd be awesome.

if i were as random as my thoughts were youd never be able to know what im talking about. and i love it.

im tired until i get off the computer then im to awake to sleep. gah. that is so very annoying.

ok i think im done.

kthanxbei.

nicole elizabeth

(i forgot how t spell my name for a second.)

28 days, 6 hours, 42 minutes and 12 seconds

ok its the first minute of November 30th.

its been forever since ive blogged about anything in any way shape or form..

ok so i just read through my whole last post and that was the week i spent at mike mikes house.

that was a pretty amazing week as i recall. not that the time since then hasnt been amazing as well.

ive spent most of my time with mike mike. i love it =].

also today is the last day of thanksgiving break. which is sad. but i also get to miss school tomorrow because me and mum are gonna go shopping. it should be a good time.

this break has been kinda ok. i mean i got to see mike mike a whole bunch =] and wednesday i went to the Saosin concert. it was amazing. i love them.

i got hugs from the band and the lead singer called me Sweetie.

umm Rachel got surgery and a week and a half ago. that was fun.

Thanksgiving was interesting.

uhhhhhh theres not much else to say.

how about. i wish a certain mike mike would tell me what he really wants for christmas.

i told him what i wanted. and he found other things on his little cheating trip to zerns and the mall. (cheater)

i love that kid. =]

======random lines==========

and now for something completely different.

i just made a cd for my mum. i hope she likes it.

i should really be getting to sleep.

i feel like painting.

Rawro?

mike mike isnt answering me. i guess he fell asleep again.

he was here not to long ago. we were watching movies downstaires =]

(and i dont want the world to see me cuz i dont think that theyd understand when everythings made to be broken i just want you to know who i am)

the dreams in which im dying are the best ive ever had.

Donnie Darko <3

its a mad world.

well i just got distracted by a youtube video haha.

but i think its time to get to bed.

i think im tired. but i cant really tell.

oh well thats the end there isnt anymore.

Nicole Elizabeth

Weirdo <3

Daisuki Desu

oky dokey. so its been a good amount of time i guess its the 25th. so whats that like uh.. ::thinks:: 18 days. i think thats a good amount of time between posts. not muhc has happened again.
( i fell like i start of every post the same.)
well its Friday. the Friday before a three day weekend. its pretty great.
Ive been staying at mike mikes house since Tuesday. its been pretty amazing. minus the fact that he's in Florida. been there since Wednesday night.
but he comes home tomorrow.
now im blogging to techno music. haha. this kids got a weird variety of songs i must say. i love these headphones though. they're great.
i dunno why but its kinda hard to type on this keyboard. aannyywwaayy
uhh i just had something i wanted to say and now i forgot..damn.
ooh yea. uhh im kinda mad cuz i forgot how mike mike said to get new music on here. i was all excited and then i forgot. go me.
loud music makes me smile. and i know that no ones trying to talk to me so i can listen to loud music through headphones like ive always wanted to. =] its amazing.
so gym this year sux. i hate it. its completely co-ed. rawr..i got a one out of five yesterday cuz i didn't feel like jogging..its so annoying.
30/30-150? good song Ive just found out.
so yea..uh this school years going pretty well. im doing well in most classes i think. uhhh.
im not very exciting apparently. i cant think of much to say.
my goal for this year is to have a spotlight in the art show. i know i wont have one but its just a goal of mine. it seems to be helping me keep focused on my art stuffs and do better at it as well. it makes me happy.
smile in your sleep.
i love music =]
Ive got some homework over the long weekend..=[ rawr i hate homework..
but oh well. next week i get to be shown how to do neat tunnel boxes. they're so cool. and i really wanna know how to make em haha. yea that was random. but you know what..
you liked it. haha..yea i dunno..
::bring in hardcore breakdown::
so this tablet thing is pretty amazing. i want one. but im certainly nto gonna tell anyone that haha.
you're not alone there is more to this i know you can make it out you will live to tell.
yea little Saosin there ]
so after im done this im going thru mike mikes entire itunes library and correcting songs and artists haha its bugging me..
yea so umm. i pretty much love it here in this room.
its great =] and the bed is really comfy. way better then my bed. its much better here then it is at my house..
i don't wanna leave..but i have to tomorrow.
speaking of tomorrow. we gotta pick mike mike up from the airport. =] im kinda excited. not only to pick him up of course but also cuz i cant remember being in an airport before.
(the excitement is mostly cuz we're getting him though haha)
ok ok ok i think im finished here.

Nicole Elizabeth


Daisuki Desu.

=]

I Know That Song Makes You Think Of Him.

blog blog blog blog. i havent blogged in a month.

Note To Self : blog more.

and yea i know i say that in almost every post but i really should. cuz then i end up forgetting things i wanna say.bbuuttt aannyywwaayy.

to continue random things from my last post-- school has started. its not labor day break thing. 4 day weekend this being the last day haha. i do have some friends in my classes. and for those i dont have friends in or sit close to ive started to make new friends.

i have a feeling im gonna be freaking out a bunch about these classes though. i need to be more creative via art classes. i have a bunch and with the projects itll be tough. but i think i can do it. i can be creative when i need to be i think. scratch that, i hope. but they seem fun.

uh that picnic thing i said i was going to in my last post never happened. haha

my uncle from Florida has come and gone. and he wants me to make him a picture thing. they bought me a huge canvas to paint/draw on for them.. i need to get on that. my mum wants it done by Christmas. which seems like awhile away but with all the stuff im gonna have to do for school i just really need to find the time.

my stuffed doggy isnt here with me. its with that "cool teddy" i was talking about...speaking of cool teddy..well yea. never mind haha.

im listening to a song a quoted in my last post? that was interesting..=]

and now im done continuing on from my last post.

TIME FOR NEW STUFF!

so it would seem that my relationship with a certain Mr. Scheld has ended. yep thats right. its over. but thats ok. we both knew it was gonna end and we both seem happy. we're friends and see each other all the time. so its cool.

i feel like sitting on a roof. and i also with i hada closet..sadness.

theres beauty in the breakdown.

i need ideas but i dont know why or what for..yet. i need to do something. mike mike said he was coming over at noon. its one? haha. what a weirdo. although he is my weirdo.

oh my gosh.

i went to a concert not to long ago. it was amazing. i need a new calendar. but yea concert. blink 182 , weezer, taking back sunday. it was amazing. i went with Anne Karlyn and this kid named Jeremy ( i love that name) we had so much fun even though we missed the first two bands.

i bought a tshirt and a hoodie. =]

i passed out yesterday morning. and now i have this huge scratch/forming bruise on the side of my face. it is the worst feeling in teh world to do that. at least to me. i got my ears pierced.

a skylit drive =]

i should be getting ink for my printer soon. so i can print out more pictures. yay. i needs them. i also need more artwork for my other wall. its kinda empty. i need more room in my room. and i still want a closet. i wish there was a roof that i wasn't actually scared to sit on right outside my window unlike the one that's there. its at too much of a slant. sadness.

Melissa Melissa made me a CD. its pretty amazing if i do say so myself. i think mike mike may have fallen asleep again. what a weirdo. im wearing new socks. just thought id throw that out there.

rawr.

i think maybe ill go work on that thign for my uncle on the front porch for a little. waiting for mike mike. or maybe i wont. i dunno but i think im done with this blogging thing for today.

Nicole Elizabeth.

.:I Wont Forget You:.

alrighty so its been a whole month and 3 days. its 4 in the morning and im bored and have just been thinking. i also killed a bug..and feel bad? its weird. so much has been going on but some of it isnt so great.

last time i posted it was the fourth of july. and that was even beofre the party. well that day went well. rob was there. watched fireworks. everyone left cept kim. then me kim and rachel sat outside taking pictures. ummm.

theres been som ebad times since then. between me and rob. with arguing and sadness and things of that nature. its not been fun..but yea.. its my fault.

ive been thinking a bunch layin here in bed by myself at this hour. about things i miss. well things i miss rob doing actually. there wasnt many:

random hugs.

random kisses.

randomly calling me beautiful.

random comments saying he loves me..

when we're laying around, random squeezes to show he really wants me there.

things of those nature..

i guess its just random stuff really. i love random stuff. it used to be so great. but maybe that all changing is supposed to happen. i woudl randomly like you to know that i watched the Garden State and i love it.

apparently im addicted to facebook. eh it happens. school starts soon..ugh. i dont know of like anyone i have classes with.. i wish i did. seems like everyone else has people..so not cool. but oh well it wouldnt be ther first time i had no friends in my classes. i guess ill just have to be more social and make friends. can i do that? will nicole change even more to fit in more. hmm we'll see. it could happen. although me changing hasnt been for the better.

i guess im going to this picnic thing on the 11th that now everyone wants me to go to. should be..uh interesting. we'll see.

my uncle who moved to flordia is visiting soon. i need to go clothes shopping. i love music. ive got repo songs stuck in mah head..kim borrowed that movie from me and now that its gone i wanna watch it. oh well i can wait.

i got my face painted and went rock climbing yesterday. twas super fun. i wish people would wanna hang out with me more. ive been talking my mum into giving me a later curfew. yay. i like free stuff. got a bunch from target. including bubbles!

speaking of bubbles. ive been painting/drawing/outlining on this great canvas that dad found. its pretty great. i wish i could go to the mall. i sleep with a stuffed doggy. i wish i had a cool teddy bear.. i love randomness.

hey i think youre cute would you like to see a movie with me?

i just randomly thought of outerline drive.

i can see the moon from here. i should get to sleep. i need to stop thinking so much. i need to say what im thinking more often. RAWR.

my hairs all skughlwhbls and such. tis very annoying. oh well.

i thought i had more to say. i guess not. my phone wont charge correctly. and luke randomly texted me at 4 in the morning? what a weirdo.

do you think im pretty?

well i guess now ill get to sleep cuz i need it. this post only took me 18 min to complete. thats cool.

Nicole Elizabeth.

__A-L-C-O-H-O-L __

ok so its been awhile, its the fourth of july.

not that much has happened in the last little bit of time. its summer.i was at as party last night that was fun. otherwise ive just been around hanging out with folks. actually the same folks.

so i think today may suck a little bit..there are a few reasons i think so. first off i didnt get to sleep til 3 am then i woke up at 7. i did fall back asleep for like an hour and a half but thats not much sleep. it was enough sleep to have a pretty bad dream though.. i hate bad dreams.. i dont even know why i have them.. i dunno it just makes my stomach hurt. then of course i hit my fricken elbow n the edge of the door.. ouch.. it hurts. a lot. feeling a bit better though. but those are signs today may suck. another is love doesnt know when he's getting here. his best friends party is the same time as mine. which i understand i mean hey best friends haha i can wait. im just glad he's coming here at all.

uhh what else. hmm. well theres not much. i guess i could talk about the party. there were some heavy drinkers there. and some nudity. and dancing. with a pole. and smoking. we had to leave early though due to curfew. so att the Rated R stuff happened later. if at all. uh. the car ride home was fun. i was like sleep drunk. and i heard mike mike ( who claims he doesnt sing) sing MCR haha. kyle who was drunk was just sitting there eatting cheese curls. haha. no one would dance with me at the party but oh well. kevin spent half the time we were there with his pants off haha. jordan slapped everyone on the ass ( including me weird0 ) hmm. there were glowsticks. i love glowsticks.

me and love are gonna get my new fischy. im excited. its gonna be a goldfischy and hes gonna schwimmy schwimmy. i filled the tank yesterday. i loves it. all it needs now is a fish and some plants and itll be all set. =] i cant wait.

oh. i got my braces off. if thats any fun news.. not really. still got this stupid retainer. i wish someone would get online. im bored..and lonely.i cant wait for love to get here today.. i really misses him.a lot.

hmm what else what else..dorney park with melissa melissa. taht ws fun. it rained pretty much the whole time and we were first in line for a lot of the rides. we have to do that again. maybe bring someone else to who doesnt like rides to get him into them. hint hint.

i went to annes yesterday for a funny faces photo shoot. it was funny haha. i can do funny faces.

i feel like drawing but i dont know what to draw.

k so when i crack my knuckles my elbow hurts. thats fun. god i want a hug.. i wish there was something good on tv. theres still like 6 hours til the party. ugh. even longer til i see love so i can has hug.i knew it. its windy. that always happens when we are gonna have a BBQ. paperplates flying everywhere cups that arnt quite full all the way tip over ans spill.. ugh.

im not even hungry for breakfast.. my stomach hurts.. i dont like this. oh well. i keep feeling like i have to sneeze. ahh there we go. does anyone even read this anymore? im gonna go with a no. oh well.

theres not much else to talk about. so i guess thats it now.

Nicole Elizabeth

I Love Rob Scheld. ( A Lot. )

R.I.P Randyfisch

alrighty. its now june.

a bunch of stuff has happened.

im now 17. XD. and right now im in school. bored in graphic design. so i figured hey why not blog.still got an hour and 10 min left of this class. then i go to gym for literally 5 min then a lovely govt final which im really not looking forward to. but oh well. gotta take em.

im so glad we get to leave at 11. i mean it sonly 8:05 right now. but still its better then waiting to get out til 2:40. I love music.

um yea. so um . my fischy died. which is really sad. i buried him. just me though. wish someone was with me when i did it but its whatever. ive delt with it. i misses him though. but iz getting a new fischy. iz excited. its gonna be an angelfisch i think. i likes angelfischies.

bleh bleh bleh. i had a bunch of stuff that happened all in my head but now i cant remember any of it. i think that always happens. maybe. id have to go back and look at previous posts lolz. im not really gonna do that. but you get the idea.

so um i guess recent stuffs.

yesterday love randomly came over =] made me super happy. uh. i got sunburn on both my legs from sitting outside at my sisters soccer game from about 12 to 5. i got to use my new camera =] i love that thing. but it takes film which costs money that i dont have. so right now i only have 14 pictures left. and it wasnt workign the first two times i had to change the film. it ate it. so i lost like 4 or 5 pictures off the first thing of film but thats ok.uhhh

crap i just thought of somethign else and forgot it again cuz i had to scratch my face. that made me think of dori from finding nemo ( love that movie ). yay less than an hour left of graphic design. its my last class of the year. da dada daaaa.

i hoipe next year i have classes with more of my friends. this years been kinda bleh. i mean i have friends in some classes. but.. oh i dunno. im not gonna sit here and complain about it. i get to annoying when i complain apparently.

uhh. my b-day party was pretty great. i mean not everyone participated in the soda fights but it was alright. i got an Alex Pardee book from my aunt for my birthday =] i love that guy. ggrreeaatt artist. i wonder what im gonna do after school today. i have nothing to do.

rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr.

random dino instertation.

so i wish i had more to do this period. i cant think of anything to draw like i did the last time. i wish someone would draw me something once in awhile. same thing with notes. but thats just me being annoying again.

im getting a headache.

so i made a fake little yearbook thing. not many people have signed it but thats alright. i didnt make it soon enough to get everyone to sign it. i wish i had a camera. i feel like takeing pictures.

ive only been typing for 15 min.calcagnos music taste sux. glad i have my ipod.

i wish i was with my love. i know he's having fun. i dont think its possible for me to have fun in this class. the only friend i have in here is steph and instead of working on her project like shes SUPPOSED to be doing, shes asleep. that annoys me. a lot.

as soon as i typed shes asleep she wakes up. weird. hmmm mreow?

i dont have my cool icons to put at the top of this entry. that sux. i guess ill just have to put some alex pardee up theres. cuz thats all i have on my flash drive.

blub blub blub. <'o'> das a fischy.

bird sounds? wtf.

calcagno needs better music. 45 min left. da dada daaa. half way done.

Nicole Loves Rob.

just thought id throw that out there.

i really dont have anything else to write so now i gotta find something else to do for 45 min. hmmm.. well we'll see.

Nicole Elizabeth

I Love Rob Scheld.